truth sessions #4

I think I’m getting better without him, grasping the sensation of not talking to him.

Then, something happens, someone happens, and I just–lose it.

I restart every day it seems. I build up so much resistance, and then by the time I fall asleep he’s still there in the back of my mind.

I want to be ok with it. Yet, I want him to be here. I want to talk to him like we used to.

It’s not love. I just want him to be my friend. That hurts me the most…that he doesn’t even want to be that anymore.

 

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2 thoughts on “truth sessions #4

  1. Dear Liv,
    If only you knew how true this is and how much I can relate to this. I feel the same about him too. And I see him everyday. But we’re not really talking. Not anymore. I’m sorry you feel it too. And it really does hurt I get it but you are going to survive this. As much as I hopefully will.
    Lots of Love
    Gioia

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