It was one of those moments when you realize that you knew what you wanted, you just didn’t know how to get it. We both wanted something really bad that night, to be able to admit that we loved each other, but it never escaped either of our lips. We sat in silence and eventually as the sun rose and we stumbled into our beds, the moment was gone. The chance diminished and vanished. We both told ourselves, ‘another day.’ But those moments are hardly ever seized, and I realized that I might just live my life, wondering if he still loved me, and if he would the rest of his life wondering if I loved him.